And this is were we go to die...

Lately I've been surrounded by people who are using words like sacrifice, offering, and surrender. Nothing foreign or completely strange given my background of growing up in the church and my being a follower of Christ (though it's not always right I'm trying). But for some reason I woke up today and started wondering about those words which lead me to think about words that are associated with them. The one that is tied to all of them for me is altar.

And from my understanding of the old testament any time something was taken to the altar something died! Something was surrendered, sacrificed or offered to God and it was his from that point on unless he said otherwise.

So it made me think, how many of my christian friends really know what an altar is for? I mean in a lot of churches there's an altar for you to go pray at but how many people take to heart that if you go to an altar something should die. I'm not saying physically go make a sacrifice but spiritually you need to leave something at the altar cause that's what it there for. If we put something on the altar it's not our place to take it off, that's God's job.

Don't misunderstand me though cause I don't get it right every time and I'm not trying to condemn anyone, I just hope that whoever reads this will start to think about what there saying and maybe just take more time the next time they head to the altar to decide if your really gonna give something up or not.

Thanks for reading it and any thoughts would be appreciated.

TURKEYS, BATS, and PANDAS

It's been a week since my last post but what can I say I've been pretty busy.

Let me see what should you be caught up on?

First Thanksgiving was pretty much amazing! I got to see my Uncle Ed who I like so it was cool and my grandparents came from Sonora who oddly enough I miss having live here. But at dinner I thought there was going to be a freaking catfight between my Sis and my uncle's girlfriend. They were entirelly to fiesty which made things needlessly to say a bit tense.

Oh, and I ate so much food I actually almost throw up. NO BUENO

Friday I got a new dress shirt and I look pretty sexy in it if I do say so myself. And then my friends from Reno/Fallon came down and I got to kick it with them for the night. However they made me like four freaking hours late for dinner which was hecka dumb cause I was super hungry!!!

You ever have those day's when you do something with someone and you can tell that it's gonna become a memory you cherish for a really long time. I had one of those on saturday. We were decorating the outside of my house for Christmas and my dad and I were working on a project and I can honestly say sometimes it's nice to have him still be like dad from when I was little. I mean he's the same dad but it's moe of me being to get to be younger again and e really just took his time and explained thing to me and it was nice cause it's not something we had to do it was something both of us really wanted to do. It was nice cause it made me appreciate the wealth of knowledge he really has.

Even though so many people came into town this past week I can honestly say getting to see Ty and Marri where pretty much the highlights. I mean Ty lives like twenty minutes away but sometimes we don't get to hang out and it was really cool to see him I mean we played tennis and football and ate mexican food what is better then that, He's my best friend. And then on sunday and monday me and Marri kicked it all day and that was nice cause she's my best good buddy. We watched movie's one was Batman Begins and the other waqs Collateral. Both are must see movies.

School Yesterday was absolutely amazing. It was simple and relaxing and I love being back in Barron's class. Even if have the other student's are dumb and use pop philo. in there description of junk. Freaking hecka dumb, form your own opinion and use your own thoughts. Oh But Panda Express makes up for dumb people so it's cool.

Toughest Parts of the week:

1.Saying No when all you wanna do is say yes

2.Crying when I think of happy memories what the heck!

3.Holding my tongue for the sack of getting out of class earlier!

Gregorian Chants Are The Way Of The Future

If I were a monk would you still be my friend?

It's actually something I've given some serious thought to. What do you think? Is the robe and friar hair cut for me?

Today is the last day of school for the week, which is always great. I have a six day weekend which is amazing.

Yesterday was sweet I got to hang out with Jeremy for most of the day and I can honestly say he is helping me a lot. We also hung out with Josh(I love that guy) and he recently discovered that he can laugh like the mom from "That 70's Show". It makes me laugh really hard I enjoy it.
He also some how won the game of monopoly that we played which I was winning until I landed on freaking Boardwalk!!! After Tim and Brad got done with work and what not we all played Scene It and I won one game but lost the second one(dang my scene it record is pretty bad like 2-4 for the past couple weeks). After Jeremy and Josh left; tim, brad and I sat and talked it was cool.

Oh and I'm defienitely over the whole writers strike issue. There are way more important Issues we could be devoting our time to so why don't we?!

My most serious thought for Today is what I leave you with.

Why is that we look for meaning and satisfaction in everything under the sun. I think we are way more likely to find it if we were to look beyond the sun. And no I'm not just talking about outerspace but also just in ourselves things won't ever give us the meaning we need in life so get over them! My prayer today is that I can get over the sun and find the meaning I'm looking for and that I might find where I can best serve.

Sunset Boulevard?

So I watched this old school movie on thursday night in my film as lit class and it was crazy good, quite possibly one of my favorites now. It was called Sunset Boulevard and if you haven't seen it you should cause it's good and pretty funny. It was also pretty cool cause my sister picked me up and we got to hangout on the drive home and since I don't work with her anymore our schedules hardly ever leave a lot of time to hang out outside of our house.

Then on Friday i got paid! So I paid my phone bill and then went to Noah's New York Bagels and enjoyed the simply pleasure that is a cinnamon and sugar bagel. Then I just chilled at home for most of the day after that until I got ready to go to Tim's acoustic show. Which Sadly enough not as many people where there as I had hoped to see. Shame on you if you didn't go. But we went to fuddruckers after and I saw this amazingly attractive girl wearing one of the ugliest pink tiger stripes shirts that the world has ever laid eyes on and by the world I'm pretty much talking about just myself. But then I went to applebees and some of the other guy's went and got dessert and it was rather delightful.

Then after getting three hours of sleep I went and helped at the valley bowl which was fun and an looking forward to next year. There I referred four games of flag football and had to deal with guys that are considerabley bigger then in me tell me I was wrong when in fact i wasn't. No Bueno! By the way being a ref is a seriously physical job just to let you know. However i have decided that being a ref for some pee wee or little league games would be a lot of fun. Later on me and a bunch of other people went to TEXAS FREAKING ROAD HOUSE and took our college pastor out. It was hecka fun. I personally demolished a sixteen ounce steak and the sides just to prove that I could. It was hecka fun.

And over the past three day's I've been wrestling with how to be less confrontational when I'm involved in different discussions. So if you get into a serious disscusion with me and I start to get confrontational tell me cause I'm working on it!

So with the mucho big changes going on with me I've found myself a new anthem for the time being. If your bored you should find it and listen to it. It follows the theme frome yesterdays blog. Oh It's called Wishes by Superchick in case you were wondering.

Today Josh and I painted the outside of the worship center at our church with the words "worship center". It took us four freaking hours to paint four words on the side of the church. It was somewhat ridiculous if you ask me. It was a little more then agonizing standing one a ladder for that long and it was made even worse cause I woke up late and had to leave my house in with out getting to change my boxers. NO BUENO. The only redeming fact was that Josh was there and he is always alot of fun to be around. Plus I get paid which is always a bonus.

Tomorrow is looking good because I mean I get to go to my movie class and even though I'm watching a forties movie which a surprisingly better then I thought they would be. And me and my buddy Trevor get to talk to some pretty cool before our class.

Here's an amazing video from an amazing band enjoy!

Seat Warmers and Waves never ever mix

Today was interesting.

I went with my sister to work and walked to school from there. Seemingly uneventful but the entire time I was walking I couldn't help but to smile which was cool cause I find myself smiling less then I used to. Cause lately I've kind of being a mess of emotions. I'm at a weird stage of life. If you wanna know I'll explain at some point.

And honestly I think it's cause I'm realizing things will never be the same with certain people and sometimes I just want to go back to when things were more simply. Cause when things get complex thats when people get hurt. But after my delightful morning walk I couldn't help but recognize that I like it when things are complex cause the only way to get to know people is to dive right in and get messy and enjoy the complexity that is friendship.

Anyway's back to my day. School was boring I mean I love arcjitecture but when you talk about it in the two classes you have for the day and you already know the material there is only so much you can do to keep yourself interested. The highlight of the day was getting to leave early.

I've got high hopes for tonight cause me and some of the guys are going to hang out. Which means lots of laughs and maybe some warm seats!!!

Random Thought On Letting Go in the Aftermath of A Break-up

Holding on to what was will never bring it back but learning to cherishing memories and at the same time learn to let go of the life line they provide is where I want to get to.

So here's to letting go of the lifeline and moving toward what can only be better water.